Today is the day I m really feeling like writing something in my blog. At this moment I have no one, who is earnest enough to share my feeling and thoughts. I m writing in English even though it’s not my mother tongue. Hope it will give the comfort of expressing my feelings in simple words. I  m not a writer and seriously I don’t give a damn if it doesn't reflect my mental situation, still I believe at the end I will find an answer for all the questions I have inside my head twisting my mind and thoughts.......

Currently the biggest problem I have in my life is my girl friend is sick, physically. She has some problems with her blood and need to be exchanged every 5th day. it sounds simple when you heard this happening to some one who actually means nothing to you but when its your Girl friend then you are in a dilemma. It’s like one of the biggest and hardest test in your life when you have to go through a difficult time. So what I did, I prayed to god, made some promises and broke all of them within a week. Now blaming myself for her illness.

Secondly, my mom, keep asking for money, that’s ok actually cos she thinks I m wasting all my money on my girlfriend, so why not she get some as well? And it’s true. My mum is a smart woman and she actually knows all my "what’s" and "where's"

Thirdly, the car I bought, the x owner still doesn't know that his nephew sold his car to me without letting him know that. I don’t know what will happen when he will know about it.

Finally I masturbate a lot now a days. May be I m becoming a sex maniac. Donno what to do. Don’t you think that it’s ok for me to be frustrated?

Loy